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My Mental Health
01:06
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I poisoned all my drinks again and again
Assuming it would help me be a completely different person
Then I’m left with just myself, there’s never any way out
I can’t find a single thing to feel alright about
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Century
03:29
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What could take me back to that simpler time
When I was full of life and the world shined so bright
Those younger days they hold on to me, I’m like a bird in a cage
I need a change of scenery, but could it even change me?
I’m always out of place, I never felt this way
Give me a reason to stay, to stay
So what lies beneath, is never what it seems
I’ll hide these secrets for centuries and centuries
I’ve been lost in my head with all the chances I’ve had
I reached a breaking point and now I’m spiralling and spiralling
This sanctuary of all my closest memories were always running out of time
And I’m running out of mine
Have you ever felt so sure of a certain choice?
You’ll ponder your thoughts but you could never speak your voice
So watch the hourglass drop to scatter the sand
I can’t let this win, I won’t let this win
With heavy hands I hold this medicine
to keep me grounded but I feel condemned
So when all this is over I’ll show my colours and let the light in
But it always worsens
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3. |
Hideaway
02:08
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So it goes to show
You take for granted all the good times that glow
And try to out shine all the bad that’s below
One day you’ll have to go, goodbye to the world
More fragile than you know
I know it’s true, we all feel so used
When it all comes down crashing, what’s there left to lose?
And on one hand I knew counted so few
These problems we had we just never outgrew
I’d taste the rain today but I stepped outside to watch it all give way
Hello again old disbeliefs
So it makes me think it wasn’t meant to be
I’ve been so naive
Hoping someone someday could pick me up off my feet and restart everything
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4. |
Peace Offering
03:53
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It's piling up, a constant hunger I've been yearning for so long
You'd start to think that I'd get used to this, with every problem I dwell on
I'm still suffering, is this what I need? A new love for a false sense of peace
Justify the sad excuse of a stranger I call "me"
And if you pull the heartstrings, I'm closed in with clipped wings
I couldn't be enough for
anyone when I hate myself
The peace offering doesn't mean anything
When all I see are these insecurities making me my enemy
I’ll pretend that I’m okay like this
But can you tell by my tone of voice it’s not up to choice
for getting out of this bed I'm in
Staying dormant in dark places I fall right back in
I concealed the guilt, tearing down any love I built
Now I’m wearing thin, I'm letting go,
as you’re slipping (feel it all cave in)
Will this pain be useful someday?
Pessimism finds its way, to keep seeping through my veins
I’m all worn down, I can’t wait this out
My mental health is defeated now
I heard the sound in this broken house,
the memory serves me well
Please, could you pick up the phone?
I’d say it all, i’d make it known
That I’m not what I seem and you’re everything
in between someone who’s leaving
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Reminders
01:21
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6. |
Dark Grey
04:46
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So this is what it’s like to have it all turn dark grey
I watch the colours drain from the dynamic each day
Did we lose all the fun inhaling smoke from your gun?
Let me explain my love, let me explain
Why did this change? You’re holding back,
please speak with honesty - and honestly,
you held my hand so goddamn perfectly
We’re sinking again I’ll let you know I’ll let us go,
I’ll take the time I’ll leave it alone
Just know that I did all I could to make this last,
It couldn’t last
I’ve been finding all these pieces of her,
in keepsakes and reminders
with moments I can’t just put into words
when death takes us both,
could we meet on the other side?
I’ve been heart sick without her near me tonight.
I took it off, all the baggage I brought
We tried to make sense of the problems I’ve got
The last thing I’m left to think about
with you gone and as I’m falling out
Is ‘what can I learn from this’
And how do I mourn for what I miss
You’re holding back,
please speak with honesty and honestly,
you held my hand so goddamn perfectly
We’re drowning again
I’ll let you know, I let us go
I took the time, I left it alone
Just know that I did all I could to make this last
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Vertigo
03:16
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If you could notice me now, could you see
all the envy behind those eyes they told endless lies
and after all the view’s still black & white
Is it within where you’d absolve my sins,
and measure up the way that I have lived
with all my good intentions? So every now and then
I’ll think of why it had to end It came and went
like a match that burnt at both ends.
Save your breath, we only get so many chances
After all we’ve been through
I always knew it would end with you
And I, what good am I?
And I've known this all my life.
It’s like you say ‘there’s no easy way to escape’
Rest assured I’m self medicated out the front door
It burnt at both ends
I’m self medicating
Save your breath, we only get so many chances
And after all we’ve been through
I always knew it would end with you
I keep talking to myself
I’ve been my own best friend as well
I know you never meant it like that
but it’s another knife added in my back
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8. |
Aimless
03:33
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I’ve been meaning to ask the question
of why I always come up short
All this effort in trying to be someone
has me shut down and closing doors
So I’ll quit all the meaningless shit
I say to myself when I feel so down
Like ‘you’ve got so far to go kid,
you gotta brave another storm’
But out on these open seas
is just an aimless catastrophe
I’d pick up the pieces I lost of myself if I only could
Why can’t I see that all the love left in my heart
Is always revealing at the worst times with open arms?
Keep it in, bottle up,
all the feelings I end up blaming myself about
Like the mess in the family name,
We all inherited this
Take away all the fear
from the entropy and uncertainty
It’s become so clear, When our time is up
we’re all gonna disappear
I will carry on with an injured soul
to spark a flame and ignite the love
Patiently I’m waiting, but I know now
this is the last chance to do this now
The last chance to do this now
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9. |
Nosedive
03:32
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It’s just been one of those days
where I can’t see the point anymore
It’s just been one of those days feeling anxious,
reaching out, but ignored
If only I could know how to come clean and let this go
Instead of keeping habits I can’t refrain from
Well maybe that’s just me, seeing so indifferently
There’ll be no rhyme or reason
or a shoulder to lean on
It's no secret, cause I can see that
I'm still busy being pissed at my reflection
What’s said and done from myself I can’t out run.
I’m hanging on to this, and the pain held in my head
With a life lesson I've learned of "don't let anybody in”
Putting on another charade won't make it all go away
You want honesty?
Acting sorry for myself is comforting
Searching for something that could kill me quick
Give me the antidote for the mess I'm in
No guidance, I'm lifeless, and so headstrong
Help me find the difference in right and wrong
I know I’ll just end up standing in smoke,
so I’ll choke and invoke my former self as a ghost
I know I’ll just end up standing in smoke
with the words that I wrote but never spoke
Strapped in for the long hall,
I’d best learn how to enjoy the downfall
Is there a reason to fight? I’ll wilt away with no end in sight
I’ve been here before but I don’t recognize it anymore
They say pain makes you stronger, I’m weaker than ever
Will it ever end?
A feeling I discarded, since the moment all this started
I'll never fit into the shape you made
Could anyone just take my place?
Restless and hopeless, spend every given day
to waste it all away I’m wasted away.
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Mishap
03:24
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Desperately wondering, am I not all there?
When I take a fall just to knock me off my feet again
Cause lately, I’m so angry and I hide behind the flask
I could’ve sworn I’d be in a better place in my life by now
I made a pact, if I could tie up these loose ends
I’d forgive and let go of my past (but I can’t)
At first glance, you’d see I’ve been damaged like the rest
Whether to be so calm, or carry on
it wont help me forget this brevity
My worthless wants and needs
I’m so miserable, self-involved
and I don’t know how to escape the in-between
I complicate everything,
too much agony that I bring
I lost sight of me, I’m still incomplete
I know they all agree
This is beyond my control
I’ve got a long way, a long way to go
So I’ll say, so long cause I never belonged
I thought I was above it all, this is my last call
I don’t think I’m gonna make it,
and I’m not the first to admit
I’ve got too much I hold in, am I gonna break or bend?
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11. |
Jinxed
03:20
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Looks like I hit the wall
I guess I’m jinxed from birth but aren’t we all
I couldn't give you everything you possibly could need
So I guess I’ll pack my things and old photographs,
for once I felt lucky
We had to climb to walk this line
All the work we put into
But I’m still paying your dues
If you give me the opportunity
No more excuses, it’s all misleading (we’ve been dying)
Stay close, and please stay near
Let’s start again from here, let’s start again from here
Let's bring on uncertainty, so carelessly
They always leave, we’ve been dying
Old wounds now open too
I was done with being lonely in a crowded room
I started out with a blank slate that went null and cheap
It was never up to me to admit defeat
We had to climb to walk this line
All the work we put into, but I’m still paying your dues
The fear that you’d go, it was all I could show
Just don't let me down, just don't let me down
I’m at it again, like a crime we commit
These old promises were a means to an end
You’re no longer a friend, but I’ll embrace what we had
These old promises, a past life we’ll regret what we had
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12. |
Take One Capsule A Day
02:58
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Take one pill and put the wind in my sails
Anything to keep me from tossing and turning in my sleep
I need another sad story
Like the notch in the tree where you once said you’d always love me
If you were here I'd let you know how I’m near
The edge of existing but it’s not like I’m living at all
I’m done, it’s not the same now you’re gone
I’ve been left with your memory that seems like a century ago
It’s too long since I’ve felt like I was,
before this imbalance took over each ballad I sung
We all scream and shout “we wanna be someone else”
So how can we practice this act of self love?
It’s on me, it’s on us to learn how we can trust
We’ll be fine if we let ourselves start to adjust this train of thought,
I’m gonna let myself rot
I’m still holding on all alone, my times almost up
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13. |
Scavenger
03:09
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Let's recollect
I’ve been falling off track
I've been telling you my problems,
now tell me yours back
Are they on the tip of your tongue?
You’re gonna bite them clean off?
Trust me, I know how much it hurts
You’ve got your stomach in a knot
It's my flaws I look at through the half-full glass
They remind me of how I still live in the past
If happiness comes in waves,
let me drown in its undertow
Cleanse back my innocence,
let it pull me below
Our time here is fleeting,
I can't find the meaning
So what happens when we're dead and gone?
Nothing at all
I'm a wreck, I'm a nameless face
I'm an unimportant man that always gets misplaced
How the hell am I supposed to pretend I'm alright?
This spinning room from an impending doom
I'll go out quiet in the night
So will I die today?
Will I drown in the undertow?
Cleanse back my innocence, let it pull me below
Our time here is fleeting, l can't find the meaning
So what happens when we're dead and gone?
Nothing at all
Do you think I'll ever find them?
The reasons why I'm like this?
I could point and blame at empty promises,
or the broken home I'm lost in
Just make me feel like a person again,
to love myself and make amends
I'd purge the grief that I buried down deep
But I can't forget the sorrows I've kept with me
Such a lost cause, god damn, I miss who I once was
I’ll plead when I leave, to tell my family sorry
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14. |
Keepsake
02:34
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Have you ever seen this side of me?
Staring off and thinking if this is all there is
I always thought I’d die alone and confined
I’m holding on to what I have, a souvenir that was mine
Like a needle and thread can’t stitch up or mend
Any minor mishap that's been taking over to my bitter end
It’s just my luck again and again
Still going down, and down I spin
Give it up
So if you picked up the phone,
you maybe would’ve known
That this outcast stuck in the past broke
every fucking vow we talked about
It’s not the worst that it’s been
I know that I’ll never win
A goal that’s just out of reach,
like my new year's resolutions
I’ll watch the clock racing to and forth I’ll be pacing
This is the reason I’m this way
this is the reason I’m so afraid
It’s starting up again and now it’s brimming
I won’t hold this in or let it get the best of me
Is something waiting for us at the end of the earth?
I get so existential when I think too much
I know I’m going to die alone and confined
I’m holding on to what I have, a souvenir that was mine
Like a needle and thread,
can’t stitch up or mend
any minor mishap that’s been
Taking over to my bitter end
It’s just my luck, again and again
Still going down, and down I’ll spin
Still going down, and down I spin
I’m giving up
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‘Here, and now’ it’s all that fucking time could allow
I was headed south, with any progress that I made all shot to hell
The hand I’m dealt was rigged and cheated, I’m beyond defeated
Let’s call it quits, I don’t want a single goddamn thing to do with it
This dire warning, with no one to save me
Tell me the truth from lies, if being next to no one’s my birthright
Controlled my own destiny, I’m headed six feet deep
I am all torn apart, piece by piece from the start
To hold on, or let it go - it doesn’t matter, we’ll never know
It doesn’t matter, we’ll never know
So it seems, I’ve been staring at the walls and ceiling
Still wondering, if we’re really all connected and one to be?
With words so contrite, I’m over being half alive
I’d beg or borrow for a better fucking life if I could
Let’s call it quits, I don’t want a single goddamn thing to do with it
This dire warning with no one to save me
Tell me the truth from lies, if being next to no one’s my birthright
Controlled my own destiny, I’m headed six feet deep
I am all torn apart, piece by piece from the start
To hold on, or let it go
it doesn’t it matter, we’ll never know
A storm I’ve been calling is now hanging over head, I kept my fingers crossed
I gave it all, I tried my fucking best
If there’s one thing I’ve learned
it’s that all this is just made up and meaningless, so meaningless, when I look within
Tell me the truth from lies, if being next to no one’s my birthright
Controlled my own destiny, I’m headed six feet deep
I am all torn apart, piece by piece from the start
To hold on, or let it go
It doesn't matter, we’ll never know
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16. |
Speaking in Tongues
03:08
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Look at me and tell me what you see
I need to get away for a bit
Cause even when I try my hardest it never really makes a difference
Along the way I noticed everything I loved led astray
I’m so full of remorse and shame
It’s just price that I pay
Forget me when I’m gone, now I’m like a swan song
Godspeed to the last breath in my lungs
This is my setting sun
Go on, please tell me again, repeat what you just said
How I won’t amount to anything at all
Along the way I noticed everyone is somewhere but me
So full of remorse and shame
This is the price that I pay
Forget me when I’m gone, now I’m like a swan song
Godspeed to the last breath in my lungs
This is my setting sun
Can you hear me? Am I speaking in tongues?
Cause I’m not enough and never was
Get up, get over myself. It’s easier said than done
It’s all said and done. Goodbye, so long
Falling through every hole in this foundation
Land head first - black and blue, lifeless and overdue
Forget me when I’m gone, now I’m like a swan song
Godspeed to the last breath in my lungs
This is my setting sun
Can you hear me? Am I speaking in tongues?
Cause I’m not enough and never was
Get up, get over myself. It’s easier said than done
It’s all said and done. So goodbye, so long
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